a gift for a love...

This is story of myfriEnd..it's an old story,happen several years ago..

He's just ordinary person like the others,the guy who trying to be nice to everyperson that he knows..But sometimes,a good will not always followed by a good feedback..

So this is the story...read it carefully,and i hope you'll change your mind as suppose to be :)

It was a really warm night when he was wrapping that box with a beautiful paper special for the gift..He wondered about the expression of her beeing gave a present for her birthday..
They have been such a close friend for a year..So,i t,hink it's something normal when you give birthday present to your closefriend..Unfortunately,it's not her birthday..He was late about 5 or six months (and i think it's one of the cause of the probs then)...

Actually,they have some similarity with mystory about jimmy and monika before..When they're closefriend,and jimmy felt in love with monika,and (looks like) monika doesnt have a few feeling for him..

It's a beautiful morning when he's bringing that present happily,hoping her smile and wondering about her feeling then..(actually i helped him for wrapping the box),When he passed her by,wishing for the smile,the result is null...there's no smile,no say hello..as usual...

Something ain't right appear in his heart,normally when you bring that kinda big present as big as like that,people must ask who is it for,what's inside of it bla bla bla..but,maybe because it's something common that in the first sight of their meeting,no side of them say hello first..haha that's quite funny..

Is she know that it's for her?
will she throw this out in front of him when he gives it to her?

It's the words that appears in his mind minutes by minutes after..

3 hours later....

He already gave that present for her.saying that it's actually for her indirectly,he was really happy for that..flower and flower filling his heart up..:)

One day later....

It's 5 pm when he heard that she reject his present without open it first..he's so in misery,sad,angry and every bad thought crossing his mind..it's something normal for the human like us,when we JUST trying to make our friend happy,and they deny it...

I guess actually she's not trying to breakin his heart down..i guess she just trying to make it clear about their realtionship..she never wanted to be belongs to him,because maybe there's someone outside there better than him..I think she should explain the whole reason why she didn't accept that present..and she must have a reason for it..

For my beloved friend above,don't blame your anger to her....Because maybe she has the reason for it..
For the female one..LOL...you should explain to my friend for your desicion clearly,so there's no missunderstanding after...

It's not something about a present,it's about heart,you can't blame her and saying it's mistake for rejecting it..Because in our life,there's always something we have no control...

And that's what destiny is.. :)

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What's The (Real) Definiton of Friend?

I just had some discussion with my friend.It's about the definiton of friend...I'm sure and gonna assure everyone that everybody (normally) have a friend in their life..

I take a definition of friend..it's really-really beautiful ..

what is friend?

SOMEONE WHO LISTENS

SOMEONE WHO TELLS YOU THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF AND

SOMEONE WHO YOU LISTEN AND APPRECIATE IT

SOMEONE WHO YOU WOULD BREAK ALL APPOINTMENTS TO BE WITH

SOMEONE WHO ARRIVES UNEXPECTEDLY AS YOU ARE GOING OUT AND YOU WANT
WITH ALL YOUR HEART TO TAKE THEM WITH YOU

SOMEONE YOU DON'T WANT TO LEAVE,NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME
YOU HAVE SPENT WITH THEM

Sometimes it's not like a fairytales that what we got and saw in reality.But it's the truth, sometimes you got that your friend doesn't listen,and never break any appointment for you.So?what's something we gotta do if we face someone (friend) like that,is it can't called as a friend?

I dont agree if it can't called friend.the truth is,we made the definiton of friend by ourself and for our self.No matter how they treat us,we have to stay "kind" and always beeing as a friend..

If we love our friend sincerely,no matter they love us or not,you'll feel easier facing the life. :)

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Still Loving you

It's 7 on the afternoon,20 july 2011
Mymind break back away to every moment in this day.It's really-really strange day.Not only because it's the last time i and myclassmath meet each other formally in the class,but also because something else.
I have some story of love of myfriend.And some story also belongs to me in my PAST..as myfriend have been requested,i will write this story in bahasa indonesia.I'm really-really bad writing something in bahasa indonesia.Just ignore the "tata bahasa",,just read the story carefully..

I hope some of you will get something and change your mind as suppose to be..

Playlist saya pun berganti menjadi "pemuja rahasia"nya sheila on 7.Saya nikmati lirik demi lirik yang dilantunkan oleh "Duta".Ingatan saya melayang ke beberapa tahun yang lalu (mungkin 5 tahun yang lalu),ketika saya membantu seorang teman untuk melancarkan jalannya menuju hati yang terpuja.Namun,ketika itu banyak pikiran terlintas melintasi pikiran saya yang sekaligus mengacaukan dan menggoyahkan keinginan saya untuk membantu teman tersebut.

Apakah pengungkapan kepada sang terpuja yang akan melunturkan gelar "pemuja rahasia"nya ini adalah suatu hal yang tepat?

Mungkin bagi sebagian orang hal-hal kepemujaan kepada lawan jenis yang bersifat "hanya" rahasia ini akan kehilangan kesakralannya ketika diungkapkan,sebagian lagi pasti akan menunjukkan bahwa mereka berani mengungkapkannya dan secara frontal akan mengungkapkan kepada sang target..

Kedua pendapat itu sangat bisa diterima,namun pada kondisi-kondisi tertentu."Pemuja rahasia" mempunyai arti bahwa kepemujaannya yang bersifat rahasia,bukan eksistensi diri..
Bagaimana ketika sang terpuja adalah salah satu teman dekat sang pemuja yang tidak tergantikan?mungkin kita harus berpikir keras ketika akan mengungkapkan kepemujaan atas dirinya dalam kondisi tersebut..

Secarik pengalaman teman mungkin akan membuat kita berpikir kembali resiko resiko yang akan kita dapat ketika akan mengungkapkannya..Sebuah kisah antara (anggap saja) jimmy dan monika..

cH3ck 1T 0U7..

Pagi hari yang cerah ketika jimmy melirik alarm handphone,7.25 am.Ada hal yang berbeda pagi itu dibanding pagi biasanya,bukan karena ada 3 panggilan tidak terjawab di handphonenya pagi itu.Namun,suatu hal yang jauh lebih dalam yang tak tertandingi jika hanya dibandingkan dengan panggilan tak terjawab.

Jimmy 2 minggu yang lalu,seorang anak remaja biasa yang hidup di era modern ini mungkin tidak akan menyangka hal ini akan terjadi pada saat ini.Bukan karena hal ini memalukan bila dipandang orang lain,namun menjadi hal yang sangat memalukan bila hal ini kenyataan.

Pagi yang cerah diiringi suara percikan air mengiringi perjalanan yang dilakukan Jimmy setiap hari,menuju ke sekolah..Dengan mata yang kusut serta pakaian yang tidak teratur kedatangan Jimmy disambut oleh Monika,sahabat dekat Jimmy..Sebuah kerlingan mata serta secercah senyuman membuat perut Jimmy terasa jungkir balik.Dan dengan sebuah anggukan elegan menjawab senyuman itu,namun rasa penasaran atas perasaan jungkir baliknya isi perut Jimmy yang akan membuat hari-harinya kedepan berbeda.
it's never happened before..

Hari demi hari berlalu ketika Jimmy menyadari apa yang telah terjadi sesungguhnya dengan dirinya (perasaannya).Sebuah penolakan besar namun tidak bisa menandingi perasaan itu pun muncul dari benak Jimmy.Jimmy tidak akan pernah mau meninggalkan dan membuat sahabatnya dalam masalah,namun apakah ia akan sanggup melawan perasaannya yang kian membesar ketika dihadapkan dengan kenyataan bahwa Monika tidak bisa dimiliki...

Langkah demi langkah telah ter-analisis oleh Jimmy,ada 2 keputusan yang mungkin dapat diambilnya.Pertama,tetap menjalani hubungan seperti biasa,dengan resiko rasa di hatinya akan semakin membesar dan akan semakin menyiksa dirinya.Kedua,menjauhi sahabatnya dengan harapan perasaannya akan berkurang dan berkurang sehingga keadaan akan menjadi seperti biasa.
Beberapa teman dari Jimmy terus menerus menuntut jimmy untuk membuat keputusan yang ke-3,menyatakannya...

Cerita diatas adalah bagian dari cerita seorang Jimmy yang dilanda kegalauan tingkat tinggi ketika dihadapkan dengan perasaan terhadap seseorang yang tidak seharusnya dicintai.Jimmy dengan bijak memilih langkah ke2 untuk dipilih,dengan sangat-sangat terpaksa tanpa maksud dan tujuan yang tidak baik serta dihadapkan dengan resiko-resiko yang tinggi.

Monika,sebagai seorang sahabat dekat jimmy pasti akan bertanya-tanya ketika Jimmy menjauh dengan tiba-tiba.Salah satu usaha yang harus dilakukan Jimmy adalah menjelaskan apa yang terjadi secara tidak langung.Namun,ketika usaha tersebut gagal,akan sangat-sangat merusak hubungan persahabat mereka.Untuk itulah Jimmy dituntut untuk mampu menjelaskannya maksud "penjauhan" diri ini tanpa mengatakannya secara langsung.Sungguh bukan hal yang sangat mudah.Ketika akhirnya Jimmy menyadari bahwa pilihan ke-2 ini adalah merupakan suatu kesalahan (dengan indikator bahwa perasaannya justru semakin membesar),it's the real problem of it all...

Siang yang terik ketika Jimmy mencoba mengumpulkan keberanian untuk mengungkapkan eksistensi perasaannya.Dedauan bergerak dengan lincah tertiup angin seolah memberi semangat padanya untuk melakukan apa hal yang menurutnya telah dilakukan dari dahulu kala.

Dan pernyataan itu....

Kata demi kata telah terlontar menghujam hati Monika,seorang teman dekat yang dengan tiba-tiba menjauh dari kehidapannya dan tiba-tiba muncul dan menyatakan perasaan itu sangat cukup membuat jantungnya berdebar tak karuan.Itu bukan lah sebuah pertanyaan,namun hanya pernyataan cinta..Hari demi hari kecanggungan kian menjadi,mungkin bukan sebuah kondisi yang mereka berdua ingin kan,sebuah resiko yang harus ditanggung demi memberi efek lega terhadap perasaan Jimmy.Namun,justru memperburuk suasana-suasana yang diharapkan..

Mungkin kita bisa berkaca dari kisah Jimmy dan Monika itu.Kita tidak bisa menyalahkan apa yang dilakukan Jimmy,pada persoalan intinya adalah "Jimmy menginginkan suasasana seperti biasa,tanpa mengingat hal-hal yang telah terucap"..Namun mungkin itu bukan lah hal yang mudah bagi monika,disatu sisi dirinya sungguh ingin suasananya kembali seperti semula,disisi lain banyak faktor yang mempengaruhi keputusannya untuk semakin menjauh dari Jimmy..

Segala sesuatu yang dilakukan Jimmy adalah untuk memulai kembali,apa yang telah mereka lalui dahulu dan ia rela melakukan apapun juga untuk hal itu..karena disetiap langkah-langkah kehidupan Jimmy seterusnya,dan disetiap senyum keindahan dirinya masih tersimpan fakta bahwa Jimmy masih mencintai Monika...

Apa yang dilakukan Jimmy mungkin adalah suatu keputusan kecil dari segala keputusan yang akan dihadapinya sepanjang umurnya,namun satu kalimat sederhana yang belum terucap dari bibir Jimmy,dan sungguh sangat ingin diungkapkannya dengan segala kelembutan hatinya pada diri Monika.

Still loving you

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Inspiring quote of 1K (part-1)

I have 37 wonderful friends in my class.Each of them have their own special ability.They're all extraordinary people.I dont wanna talk about academic ability,sometimes we can't count people as an extraordinary by (only) seeing their academic skill.I do also dont wanna talk about special ability like we seeing in heroes movie (people can fly,healing fast,telekinesis,etc).I just wanna talk about a simple miracle of human.It's heart.. :)

I often trying to understand all of their mind,not like matt parkman in heroes who can reading somebody's mind,i just trying to understand the way of thingking each of them.Lately,i just realize that it's something crazy and impossible to understand the whole of theirs.The problem that we have to face when we trying to ongoing and socialize is a difference.We came from different place,different culture,background,family,past and many more.

One of them told me their "feeling" about beeing in this class.He feel not really comfort beeing here.I just suggest him to doing as good as he can,just be your self,and the real point is you can't ask the others to understand your feeling,your unsuitableness and many more.But you have to miggle and understanding them.:) :) :)

On the other hand,while i can't keep trying to understand whole of them,i always "observe" their unique quote.Maybe they don't realize that their words are really inspiring,and their words are really change mylife.It's called Simple-miracle.LOL...

Okay this is 5 quote of 1K that really inspiring me.I dont say whose is it,or put the label of the name.
CH3cK 1t 0UT!

1."Every goodsystem (rule) is right and has a good purpose,but the human who carrying out that ruin it"

I was really surprice when he said something like that.Actually that quote is really common quote,but because he's really funny and childish,and when people like him saying something serious like that,it's really really weird.hahhahah.
But,as the time when he says that,i really felt ashamed.I never obey some rule made by junior,senior high school or even my college.That's why,really big thanks i dedicate to him.His simple quote really really change my viewpoint of system and rule..Thanks dude! :)

2."We've been beeing as a friend for so long time,what if we move on and being as a couple???"

Hahhahaa,stolid person saying something like that?it's really really funny.He told me about the day when he declare his love to her girlfriend.At the beginning i don't believe him that he used this quote to state his love.Why?because i don't really think that....... hahhaha (forget it).
Sometimes when we've been beeing as friend or a close friend,something called love appeared.

Is it a mistake or what?

I never agree if someone says that love is a mistake.Love is a grace,however when you fall in love with your own friend/close friend.Never avoid it.Harder you try to run from your feeling,harder you feel you need him/her.Because we can't destroy love.And it's our fate.. :)

3."The theory of economic is an abstract subject,it's about human opinion,so you can't rate 0 (zero) in people opinion"

It's one of disappointment of the result that our class got in introductory economics subject.I really agree of that statement.Economic is an abstract,you can't give zero to somebody opinion,even when his opinion was wrong,at least just give some achivment..hhaha LOL

I was walking back to myroom when we had a talk about it.Lately,it's one of factor that really bring me down,i din't really feel upset looking the last result of mypaper.I just felt
beeing unappreciated seeing the crosses sign accrossing most of my answer.I write about 15 lines of the answer,and the teacher just cross it and give it zero.:)

But,it's a dynamic of life.Sometimes you're feeling happy,sometimes sad.God try to examine us so we can be better step by step.

The real man is the one who will rise up when he got stumble,how hard the obstacle he faces

4."Every good government wisdom must have negative consequence"

It can be right and it can be true.hahahhaha..(labil)..I told him about the fire burning under ampera bridge in palembang.I said it wasn't something accidental.Some people said government designed it to make it be a beautiful park,while some merchant/trader jazz up that location.

I do really agree that it's true,because there're some choice of life that have negative consequence,on the other hand we have to decide which one that we'll choose.

AND....

I do really agree (too) that it's wrong.Imagine how if we change just bend (not break) that statement..We find a way that negative consequence become something good (just like recycling the garbage)... :)

5."something small and simple will be a huge and wonderful thing,if it's you,who did it"

That's true...although it's subjective view,but however it's true.
He's the one who has a probs with the other of myfriend.It's something about "it".hahaa.

We can see in our daily activity.That's really happen.When we're beeing in home,look around,there're many of our love.Only their smile can change our mood.Something simple will change everything of the world.just like butterfly effect,

so although what we did is a simple or small thing,it can be wondeful thing for other people who love us.So,always think before you do something.Because maybe if you did a small thing that hurt our love,it can be really2 huge thing that hurt them.

So...

It's 5 quote among 37 of mywonderful friends.It's really-really inspiring me.I hope there're many thing that you can take from it

Friend is everything,so while you have a chance to help or make them happy just do it.because we don't know maybe it's our last thing we can do for them. :)

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