freedom

yeah,,,middle semester of test is over...ehm.......that's very.....ehmmm...i dont have any word to describe my word...i'm free now from that's all f*cking lesson.for every formulaes...for every function..uhm..that's undescribeable....

Today is my friend's birthday,maybe because of the examination,so..it's not really prestiscious..so,we just give a gift as usual.after the first examination today..we told about everything...we told about the examination and everything..we told about the restaurant near of "five interception".."that's really delicious,the food near of there....you'll get very spicy from the chicken"said my friend..Ohya...that's his 17th birthday.....

And he said to myfriend (my friend is a female).."so,now..we're legal for watching porn video?no body will forbid us?isn't it?"i just laugh at them when my female friend agree with that statement....


So,based on my friend statement.I think every teenager may have a want to do what their want based on their self.Actually as a normal teenager too,i also have any want to be free,but we have to remember of the risk what we'll get.it's really have a big risk for us to watching without watched by our parents.it's not a best way i think.

we also can see,when ibrahimovic wanted to look for new club.We must be know that every human have an ambition.an also ibrahimovic.He want to play more in champions league,and he felt Inter Milan has no chance to win champions league.So,he'll not satisfied in Inter Milan..
Unfortunately,the precident of Inter Milan,Massimo Morrati (if i'm not mistaken).will release Ibra if only there's a club will expend for 100 billion euro.
i dont think it's fair..........!

can you imagine,is there a football club wanna spend for 100 billons euro only for Ibra???
that's a bullshit!!

Massimo Morratti must think again,and listen ibra's heart.must sacrifice for ibra's future.

Same like myfriend..everyone have a want,have an ambition.so,we gotta listen other people,dont think about us.....
dont ever said,,,"me..me...me"......but we must do for our surrounding.can you imagine,if everypeople think like Massimo Morrati.....Unstable Elecrton will appear.
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my lovely sista,,

“ i write this post…..with drops by drops of mytears..like sweep picking in guitar..dropping from my eyes”


Actually I had 1 sister and 1 brother.i’m the second of the three.my sister was wonderful.she’s older 7 years than me.in the beginning of 2009,I and my family went to my father village,it’s very unspeakable experience.hahahah…lebayyy (lebay means very very over than needed).we went to komering village by sitting in my father’s car only.hehe…I was never thinking that it’s my last journey with my sista.


About 1 week later,my sister comeback to Yogyakarta city,because she’s still had master education in technical of architecture.But it didn’t pass 3 days,she got vomit and vomit.it didn’t stop anyway.20 minutes got vomit and got vomit.so my mother said that she must go back to Palembang city.


After she arrived in the airport of Palembang city.so,without waiting for the armageddonn,my father,mother and her went to Muhammad husein of hospital.it’s one of best hospital in Palembang.The docter diagnose that it ‘s just a maag.”She’ll get well soon.” Said the docter.Maybe about 2 weeks she was in hospital.But before goback to the home,the docter said she must doing CT SCAN.it’s such as a scanning of body,,all of the part of body.So,she did it and we waiting the result of it.After she did it she back to the home.

I still remember when she’s in the home.everything,when she offer my her cooking.When she waiting for me from my school.i don’t know how to express it.it’s unforgettable memories.i knew that she’s okay.

And we got the result of CT scan.My father wanna me to discuss it.so when saw the result,I knew that’s pericarditist (there’s a liquid in the membrane of heart).I told to myfather it’s not really serious.because of it.So,her heart sinking in that liquid.So,we can imagine,when we work in the water,we cannot work well.So that’s why,she felt painful in the muscle.because the circulation of the blood it’s not normal.I suggest myfather inhale that liquid iin the hospital.Myfather agree,and he would do it.

Unfortunatetly.She’s drop.the condition was like before.get vomit always and feel painful in the muscle.i know that’s very painfully.So we took her again to the hospital.In the hospital,she stayed there about 1 week.but,we felt the doctor gave up,because they didn’t know what the disease actually.So,we took my sista home again.
So,my father bring her to Dr.Alie gani.He’s Amoy’s uncle.(amoy is myclassmate).He’s also the best doctor of heart specialist.So,He suggest us to bring her again to hospital.for doing inhalitation.So,Dr.Alie gani take apart to be one of the doctor from the team.

After,10 days she was in the hospital.she said wanna back home.but myfather refuse it,she said “only one days,or ahalf of day.or maybe 1 hour,or only seeing the house,it’s okay”.We asked to the doctor,but the doctor disagree.And the doctor said that she must doing an operation.They give us 2 choice.We do it in Palembang,but waiting for the doctor from Jakarta (capital city of Indonesian).Or we go to the Jakarta?

After,very hard thingking myfather agree that the operation must in Palembang.So,they called the team of doctor of Jakarta city.The schedule of that operation is in the 7 march of 2009.fortunately,my aunt take apart in the operation.she’s a nurse.1 week before the operation 1 and my girlfriend came twice.My sista was very happy when mygirl give her a chocolate.hehee..she’s very like it,even she cant eat it all,but she’s happy.


7 march of 2009...............





It was raining,little bit pouring rain.i came to the hospital in the early morning.although that was rain but.i didn’t know why,that I must being in the hospital right now.the operation begin in 10.00.i still remember when I take a picture of her.and anything all.she’s always smiling in that morning.the team of the doctor contain about 4 doctor from Jakarta and the least from Palembang.maybe there’s 15 people in there.


I asked to my mother to take my photo with her.Because,I knew,maybe it’s my last photo….so,the doctor bring her to the operation room.
We was waiting for the luck…….when the doctor called my parents.they said,they must delayed that operation because the condition of my sister.So,they said,they’ll bring my sista to the ICU.after waiting for a while,the doctor called myparents anymore.but,I didn’t know why,I knew it’s bad news.so,because it’s 12.00.i go to the mosque to do noon praying.


After did it.i didn’t go to the waiting room directly.i walking a while in that hospital.But when I came to there.my uncle said that my sista is already pass away.I didn’t know why,there’s something in my heart.my feeing.it’s like when we go down in the ladder but we skip a ladderstep.I’m not crying yet in that time.but,when I met my father.he just smiling with me and said “we have to face it sincerel.it’s her destiny”.I don’t know why,I was crying accidentally.I felt very lost in mylife.i must lost one of my spirit.


She’s my sista and can be myfriend.she’s friend when we’re singing.she’s friend when I learn guitar for the first time.she’s friend when we’re coking together.she’s friend when we sleeping to get her.she’s friend when I have a problem.she’s a friend when I’m crying.she’s friend to make a problem.she’s a friend for everything..
You know what.,,she’s very very important in mylife.when i need to buy new clothes,she’s choose it for me.anything..!!!but,it’s the destiny.that’s our last destination…we gotta face it,,



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my girl beside me is materialistic

you know what..myspeedy is block....it's one of fastest connection in indonesian.but'it's too expensive.maybe we expend 1,6 million for internet only.so,i asked my mom to changes the connection..

so,i'm in the warnet now..

several minute ago,the girl beside me was called by her boyfriend..




and,,easily..


sha said."okey,,,i dont have money,,please honey,,let's go to the mall..i wanted to buy new clothes and bag..but use your money...i now you love me honey"...

i was very suprise when i listened it,,,directly,,i laugh at her....


i dont know...

maybe people,expecially woman in indonesian,have a mainset,that boys or man,expecially they boysfriend,must expend their money for them....

they think they can take advantages from the man who always love her....maybe it's not little boys same like the girl beside me...but,,in indonesian,we have only "cewek matre" not "cowok matre"....

cewek matre means=materialistic girl....


so,,,as a good boys,,i suggest you all,,

dont ever love woman that love your money,,..



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To be with you......

.....that's a nice song from mr.big.maybe in 90 era,that's song very famous,and stayed 3 weeks in mtv mucic awarded.
i knew this song from the first time when i learn guitar.in the begining of 2008.i still remember,when i thought this band doesn't have a drummer.because,i knew mr.big song only from my sista,she gave me "goin with the wind blows,and to be with you"....you know it's all no drum actually.

but,i opened my eyes of the world music industrial when i join in senior high school.in junior high school,i only knew indonesian band,such as,peter pan,padi,dewa19.but i in senior high school my friend introduce me with DREAM THEATER,AVENGED SEVENFOLD,COLDPLAY,DRAGONFORCE and many more.

i feel very lucky stayed in this school.because,the students are more globality (i dont know the word exactly..hehe)than others school..maybe,it happen because of my school has very high technology to support the educations..

myfriend laugh at me,when he introduce me with that's all band...He said,it's all to be with you.....hahhaha....He said "i'm very confused when i knew,the guitaris as good as you,,as fast as you..dont know JOHN PETRUCCI....Actually i dont know it exactly....i dont know all about mucic in junior high school..i just know guitar,not music..not band..my sista introduce me with music only with ..robbie williams,celine dion,and ronan kitting..they all arent a band player...hehhehe

maybe,it's true what my friend said.....

guitar is to be with you....


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My first......

Ehm..i suppose this's the first posting because i deleted my last blog and subtitute it with this one.My last post is talking about guitar only,only guitar guitar and guitar.as the human beeing i felt bored when i was writing about guitar and guitar..ehhmmm,,maybe i needed a refreshing,,so,because of that "problem" so i changes the name of my blog....i thought "what the hell of mylife "s the best to be my blog name.but...i think it's not suitable with me...hehheheehehe.........i seldom to use "special word" such as f**k,s**k,or go to hell..heheheh,,my mouth is very clean of all that word.
i'm still in senior high school of 17.in indonesian country,spesificly in palembang,the central city of south sumatera (it's name of distric in indonesian).It's a hard work to be selelected in this school.I had 3 tests to be selected.first,audition of report value,second,writing test,and the last is interview.oh yaa...i'm in the second year.yeah...the second test is a wonderful test.you know what!i thought the questiong wasn't suitable with ability of junior high school student.(6 mouths ago i know the question actually for SPMB test,it's like selection for university).and the participant almost 1000 student...yeah,that's a little piece of my school. Read More..