You're a gift i deserve

you're a gift
you're a gift i never dreamed i could want or need
and everyday i will show you that you're a gift that i deserve
you make me the best person i could ever hope to be
and i wanna spend and learn and love the rest of my life with you..

It's the part of dialogue of serial tv,chuck..It's the part when the main character,charles bartowski and his fiance,sarah walkar practice some list of their marriage..That's really romantic,i often rewind that scene minutes by minutes..It's such the most romantic scene of the whole season of that serial tv.

Well,that scene has been remembered me to the next story of david and sophie in my post "it's not a matter of duration"..the story was ended when david and sophie agreed to be as a couple,that was 20 february under the romantic trees in the beautiful park...
OKay guys,let's check it out..

It's has been 1 years and 8 month since we agree to be as one.i was reading a novel in my bedroom while my little brother talking about the football match last night.i have some unrelated-hobby-each-other just like,reading a novel,playing football,music but fortunately i didn't love dancing.myphone rang showing there's a new message for mewhen mybrother imitate of Liverpool's goal...

It's sophie...

It's has been more two years after my declaration of love to sophie.I still remember when i say that love gently,i wondered how i could say that thing,but it was really right and romantic moment.It's kinda city park,there's a basketball court in there,and i was standing under some trees,waiting for her coming nervously,that tree looked cool combined with some birds flying around when the children shooting the ball to the basket.

I will never forget that moment,when she walk into me,throw her smile smoothly,and finally say "hi" to me,i was stunned..It's kinda beginning of my new life.Well,My wonderful new life...I even didn't notice what people act when i say my love to her.Finally i was succeed collecting mybrave and bang bang bang...

I can't even describe how that her expression looked when she agreed to be mygirlfriend.After i ask that (fuc*ing) question,lol..3 second later,she answered yes direcly..The whole flower of the world seems like filling up my heart suddenly.I even didn't know what else to say to her..well,honeslty, she dazzled me.. :)

She send a message to tell me where will we go for date today,right now,i dont want to spend our time only take some dinner or go tot movie,I prefer visiting some historical place of our love..

Our true love..

She's such a gift to me..My life Before hers is really sucks.I was disorganized man,very very untidy,and when she came to my life,boom... Everything's changed..I never dreamed that a kind of the most beautiful creature in this world come and revise whole the bad aspect in my life.

She's my motivation,
The one who make me smile without any reason.
The one who make me laugh whenever i'm about to cry.
The one who believe me even when she thinks i'm wrong.
The one who trust me when nobody trust me.
The one who full every side of my life..
What the hell else you can say it but the gift...

Whenever i remember about that 20 february day,i do always feel blushing,because i never feel that i deserve having such a wonderful gift..
Because of it.I will always promise to show to the world.That she's the gift i deserve,and i will always thank to the god for that gift..

Well,while time goes by,David's love to Sophie it's bigger and bigger.They try to learn each other as the way to love more each other..One of cause that make him keeping his love is because he always think that she's a wonderful gift that has been change his broken life completely..

David is quite lucky given such a wonderful gift.But you know,everyone have a gift in their life..All you need to do to realize it is just look around..you will find your gift then..it's your family,friend,teacher and many more..

What make David different with another man who try to end his live?

It's they don't realize that god give too much to be caunted gift for his life.They don't realize that their family always love them in every condition in this life.They don't realize that their friend always hug and hold they tight whenever they feel lonely...

So,to be grateful of our life,all you need to do is just realize..that you have already had that gift...

:)

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I love you,you hate me...

I love you..
You hate me..
We've broken relationship..

Well,i remember that old song that i used to sing when i was a young boy.In my highschool,my friend changed that lyric into more "funny (and) disgusting" one..He was really funny when he sang that new-version of lyric of that song.Now,something's crossing mymind while i take mysnack,watching my cats fight each other.It has a corellation with myold story,in my "still loving you" post.A story about Jimmy and Monika..(just suppose) The story end when Jimmy gave monika a kinda present,and monika refuse it..well,this is the continuity of that story,check it out..Hope can change your mind as suppose to be..

Yeah,this is me,Jimmy.Lying in my bed,wondering if i can fix anything that happen in my life.I don't think i deserve it all,after everything i gave to the world,to my life,to hers.I do not blame her because of that incident,when she decided to refuse (or even ignore) my-late-present.I thought she had a point to do something like that,and i respect it.I tried to contact her,but still,no answer."Answering machine" ask me to leave some message to her.Well,this is the condition that i do not really really expected..

I know what's the point she tried to deliver to me,but she's wrong...I never wanted something more from her.I just..err wanna show something different inside me about her (i prefer calling it "care").And again,i dont know which part of my act that she called "approaching to be belongs"..Because i know it cannot (wont) be happen.And i think she knew the reason.

We used to laugh together,telling story about whole funny thing.Getting lunch together,and many more..and now,i lost it all..i miss it like crazy.I know that i can't fix it (the whole of it),but...yeah...you can't erase all the memory we had only because of that incident.It's not worth that..

Remember when we first met each other in the crowded,i even didn't notice you at all,but as the time goes by i knew that there's something more inside you that made me curious.And now,when my curiosity has been satisfied,i lost everything.Not only because she refuse my present,but also because she (looks) doesnt want have a touch with me,that's really break my heart.

Love in my opinion is not always refers to "special relationship,affair,or etc"..I love her as a friend,well close friend..But maybe,she thought about another definiton of love..Well,maybe lately i acted excessive,but trust me..I care to hers,only because i feel she just like mysister..

Couple weeks ago,i sent some message to her,hoping there's some improvement in our relationship,but again,again and again the result was disappointing.Recently,i spend mytime wondering what should i do right now,i'm confused.I know what she've done has been broken my heart,besides,i dont wanna miss a thing from her..

But now i realize that i'm done..yes i'm done..

I love you,you hate me....

Well,we can see in above,something happen in Jimmy's mind..He doesn't know what he suppose to do..

I think,forgetting hers is not the truly solution,besides,it's so hard for Jimmy to forget their sweet memories..But..
sometimes you can't always get what you want in this life..Sometimes there's a time we need to back off,even it's for the thing that we're fighting for..

Now,Jimmy may disappointed for what she had done..But remember,it's the end,but it's not ended yet..Maybe for Jimmy,it's the beginning of the new life..maybe,the true friends' waiting for you outside there..maybe the better love is running up with the open arms to you..So?come on,forget about that girl,try to forget what you have done or both of you have done together,although it's so hard to do it..

I love you..you hate me...is this end of our story?

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Difference..

Trying to write something in different way...

One week ago my friend stemy send a message in mychatbox...she gave me kinda an "award" for myblog..it said that i got "the different blogger".I read some "funny" statement in stemy blog it's "their blog is better then mine,so i think it's best to give them award for such a the inspirational blog like that"...:)

I dont think my blog (actually) include in that statement,i'm not good blogger at all..I just trying to deliver all of words in my mind and try to transfer it into word by word..and i think it's failed..In my free time i often read someblog belongs to myfriend.Most of them talking about their daily activity,some funny moment and about their love story..Truly i can't do that,telling my daily activity,funny moment and etc.. I'm afraid when people read myblog they feel like reading some trash and useless story..I'm afraid when they read mystory "so what?" statement crossing their mind..I always trying to make some useful post for the reader,trying to make some advantages for the one who read my blog..:)

Regardless of it all i wanna say thankyou to stemy for the award...i will upgrade every side of differene of my blog..LOL.. :)

This is kinda of picture of the award



One again i wanna say to stemy,i appreciate this award,and i will always try the best for myblog..:)

In our life there's always a word "difference" in everyside of life..We Can not say it as the curse..we must say it as a gift,and it's our duty to glorify it..

To complete each other for the better future,it's one of the function of difference..

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